You have a huge problem as you just told. You are a minister in a church and you have a problem with a certain sin you cannot overcome. And now you ask for help.
O my boy....since 2001 this was my work on internet with youngsters of 15- 25. It was in Holland and in those days youth there were very frank about their problems and told them, exactly as they were, in my column so that everyone could read their difficulties. And so it was easier to give solutions. But I don't know anything of your problems. Now ...if you want...you can send me an internal letter, or mail me, so that it is something between me and you and ( of course) God.
But when I myself came to the Lord I had a very bad thing in my life, which I wanted to get rid of. And I studied the bible with an open heart and a willing mind....and look, what happened; it is all standing in 1 Peter 1 v 23. I became reborn through the mercy of the Lord . As a little child I came into the spiritual world of the Lord.
I was already a believer. But my belief became deeper since it was no longer an affair of my soul, but had gone further to my 'heart',my deepest person, my 'human spirit'. And then I asked to the Lord to fill me with his Holy Spirit, as you read it in Ephesians 5 v 18. And gradually I saw that the devil was bringing me in difficulties with that sin I had not really conquered as yet. And helped by the Holy Spirit of the Lord I conquered my problem.
Yes....you can....by the help of Jesus, of the Holy Spirit, with all his gifts, (1 Corinth 12 v 8- 10) and his fruit, ( Galatians 5 v 22).
We pray for you: "Oh Lord....show our dear T. the high way, so that these problems with sinning change into 'a mole's heap' ". T., you can remain in your position . But do these things and you will be a happy man, having got free of that what hinders you. For James 4 v 7 says: "Resist the devil and he will flee from you". Resist ...in the name and the power of Jesus.