Hello Desire faith.

Let me read with you Ephesians 6 v 12:
"Our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms".

The enemy, against whom you have to fight, is not your own mind. This own mind is not your worst enemy. Your worst enemy is the devil.
James 4 v 7 says;
"Submit yourselves then to God. Resist the devil , and he will flee from you".
It will be good for you to say to God:
"O Lord I want to submit myself to you".
And it is also good, that you say to the devil:
"In the name of Jesus...I resist you", ( Mark 16 v 17).

And don't believe that you have done the sin against the Holy Spirit.
The Pharisees, (Matthew 12 v 32), were quite vulgar. They were in great pains about their position. Jesus was taking that position away, so they feared. They should loose their influence, because all their clients should go to the competition. And from these 'common' ideas they attributed the exorcizing of the evil spirit out of wilful obduracy to Beëlzebul, the devil.They were very close to 'the sin against the Holy Spirit', but they were too short-minded to see, in how great danger they were.

And even if people have acted out of spiritual reasons, as is written in Hebrews 6 v 4, so well known to you, there is a possibility to repent. For v 8 offers a way to rescue:
"....they are IN DANGER of being cursed...".

But you....after a period, the devil patiently did fade away all the delightful things, you had already received from the Lord....came that bad moment, that you said all the things you have written to us.

The devil...HE has done the sin against the Holy Spirit. Ezekiël 28 is telling, that he had a high position in the angelworld. He knew everything of God, but in the end he began to hate God and shouted his "No"to God. And ever since he is anihilating all good things, till in the end...
when he has temptated all mankind, so that clearly is shown, who of them will be 'yes-sayers' to God and who will be from their free will 'No- sayers'to God. (And so satan's temptations are also tests by God).
... he will be in hell for ever, ( Rev 2o v 10)

Now Desire faith; remain in the company of us, followers of Jesus, come together at this forum. You will gradually been healed by their company.

I pray for you to the Lord:
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"O dear Lord...you have seen, in how great distress 'Desire faith' is. Will you give an 'emergancy- dressing', so that he can take breath. And will you help him furthermore o Lord. And if we can help Lord, we all say:
"At your service".
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Greetings
Ger