Edmund White, Kostís Palamás
De Amerikaanse schrijver en essayist Edmund White werd geboren op 13 januari 1940 in Cincinnati. Zie ook alle tags voor Edmund White op dit blog.
Uit: The Loves of My Life: A Sex Memoir
“I used to be shocked when Virgil Thomson the composer—who wrote the opera Four Saints in Three Acts with Gertrude Stein, which received its premiere in 1934 with an all-black cast—used to be called to the telephone. I knew him in the 1970s when he was almost in his eighties; he’d come back to the table and say, “Well, Smitty is dead,” and just sit down and continue the conversation about something else. I was amazed that he could receive the news with such indifference about such a close friend.
Now that I’m in my eighties, I realize his emotion was stoicism, not indifference; someone who outlives his contemporaries knows that he very likely will be next but that for the moment “he controls the narrative,” as pundits say. When you get to be old, everyone consults you about the biographies of your famous contemporaries. You get the last word, at least until the dead person’s Complete Letters come out.
A life, a love. I always say that Jim Ruddy was the great love of my life. What does that mean now he’s just a faint neural scratch on my brain? It seems the hippocampus delegates short-term memories to various other neurons, where they are encoded forever. Does that mean an electrode stimulating the right neurons could make Jim, his conversation, his deep voice, his big curved penis, as real as it was fifty or sixty years ago, a hologram? The wondering way he’d greet any declaration with a tentative acceptance? His always saying “Is that right?” no matter how preposterous one’s remark had been.
Maybe I’ve forgotten him because I wrote about him; I’ve always thought that writing about someone is the kiss-off. Nabokov, in Speak, Memory, was apprehensive about writing about his nanny since he liked revisiting her in his thoughts and he knew once he’d committed her to print, he’d lose her. Some people wonder why I’ve not written about them. If they’re a current part of my life, I need to keep them on life support; my husband is Michael Carroll, whom I’ve been with since 1995. I’ve never written about him; he’s too precious to me. My recent fiction is less autobiography and more thought experiment. I assemble my monsters from stolen body parts (his nape, her stutter). Often I want to lead the reader to a better (more compassionate, more forgiving, bolder, more loving) world by picturing it as if it already existed; George Meredith called that process “moral sculpture.”
What did it feel like to be in love?
Constant suspense. Does he love me yet? More? Less? Is he getting bored?”
Edmund White (13 januari 1940 – 3 juni 2025)
De Nieuwgrieks dichter Kostís Palamás werd geboren op 13 januari 1859 in Patra. Zie ook alle tags voor Kostís Palamás op dit blog.
De markt
Steeds dorst je – zoals dorst heeft naar de eerste regen
het droge zomerweer – naar je gezegend huis,
naar een verborgen leven, als de bede van een monnik,
leven van loochening en liefde in een hoek.
Ook dorst je naar het schip dat prooi is van de zeeën,
dat vogels, vissen volgend almaar verder trekt,
welks leven rijk en vol is van de ganse aarde –
maar beide, schip en huis, zij gaven ’t antwoord: ‘nee!’
Noch het geluk in afzondering en onbewogen,
noch ook het leven dat zich steeds weer weet bezield
door elke nieuwe haven, ieder volgend land –
alleen de siddering van de slaaf, van die moet zwoegen:
sleep voort over de markt de naaktheid van je leden,
vreemde voor vreemden en voor eigen mensen vreemd.
Vertaald door Hero Hokwerda
Kostís Palamás (13 januari 1859 – 27 februari 1943)
De dichters (1919) door Georgios Roilos. Het schilderij toont verschillende dichters van de generatie van 1880; in het midden, met het hoofd rustend op zijn elleboog, Kostís Palamás.
Zie voor nog meer schrijvers van de 13e januari ook mijn blog van 13 januari 2019 deel 1 en eveneens deel 2.
